If you’re reading this, first, thanks for reading my blog! I love to write and always have and the past few weeks decided I wanted to write a book but cannot for the life of me come up with a good story line so decided in the mean time to blog to scratch that itch to write.

Today was my last full week of work as I start school Tuesday. Let me just say I’m nervous AF!  This program I’m going into is a year long LPN program and let just say I’m nervous for a few reasons but in order to understand those reasons let me give you a quick backstory since this is my first blog post. I was an Army wife from 2011 to 2017. So, I spent 6 years of my life being a devoted house-wife and supporting my ex-husband’s career and I don’t regret it as I have 2 beautiful girls and had a lot of experiences that I cherish that I would not have had otherwise. Went through quite a few TDY assignments and deployment where my husband was never home…etc. also had my first child while my ex was deployed which shaped a lot of who I am as a person because let’s face it..going through labor and birthing a child while your spouse is on the other side of the planet is no easy task as well as pcsing to a new base in another state is super stressful. We moved from Ft. Drum, NY to Ft. Knox, Ky August 2015…2 months after our youngest was born and in that time frame I had done my prerequisite classes for the nursing program and graduated with my Associates in Liberal Arts and Sciences degree. When we got to Kentucky and got settled I applied to WKU’s RN program and was accepted. I’m going to skip all the details as to what led to the divorce but halfway through my second semester of Rn school, my ex husband and I parted ways and dealing with the grieving process of that and moving to a new city closer to the college I was attending I failed out of the program by LESS than half a point. 76.55…most nursing programs do not round. One question screwed me. So, to say my confidence was shaken is a complete understatement. I took some time off and went to work full time at a factory here in the town where I work to get my head on straight and just rebuild my life.

Finally started to feel like myself and applied to a LPN program a former classmate told me about and I was accepted. Which leads me to this exact moment of me writing this blog. I start this program in 2 days and as mentioned above I’m nervous, but ready to conquer just about anything put in front of me. For the longest time and sometimes still do have this feeling where there is a target constantly on my back where God is having a good chuckle and wondering just how much I can withstand before I break. However, I’m someone who believes that everything happens for a reason even though sometimes I’m left standing there wondering just what in the world did I do to deserve all of this stress that’s been put on me. Sometimes I cry and other days I shrug it off and laugh because I can’t do much else about it and would rather not bawl like a baby about it and show the world my vulnerable side. I’m a single mother and have more meltdowns than the average person and wonder just how I got to this point in my life…especially being 30 years old, but it’s life and it does go on. The important thing I remind myself is to keep pushing and keep trying.

Ok, the sappy shit is out of the way and I do apologize for that. If you’ve read this far into my first blog than you, my friend, are awesome!! However, I’m left wondering what insane person is still up at midnight reading my rants but if you are..GO THE HELL TO SLEEP!! (Lol!)..promise my posts that follow this one will be more entertaining. However, until then my little squirrelly readers..goodnight and just because you may not have to work tomorrow, do not hug the toilet bowl too tightly! 😆